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Fuck all the others, Ilu Jac, be strong.


p/s hsm2 was stilll goood, even on repeat!

N, 11:42 PM


I'm working very, very hard to feel and think otherwise,

-
but sometimes things dont happen just because you want it to.

B&js failed to enthral me (too stongworded?) and my afternoon got only slightly better, it's hopeless, I'm useless.

Mom's meesua is choking and smells dangerously good. Yummm. HSM2, prolly the only good thing about the past week. I miss you.

out.

N, 7:05 PM



it is easy said as its done this time round. i feel alil weak though, inside and out.

-

lets hope b&js from 1/2 of my favourites can rescue me from this rockbottom. maybe im more troublesome than i know i am. bye

N, 11:48 PM


-

And what does it all boil down to? Nothing, bloody fucking nothing.
You've tired me out so much, so good news, this rat is pulling out of the race. Go be happy doing whatever, whoever.

I'm going to watch The Hills3 to recharge my mental capacity.

N, 11:51 AM



like why are we here, and where do we go
&how come its so hard?



N, 10:40 PM



-

You know sometimes there are just unhealthy things/people that you never want to think about or have anything to do with again, but you just cant do it.

On a slightly brighter note, hey there's no brighter note to speak of. If you wanna count the dropping of obvious hints for sea and cse, then okay.

Disillusioned is a bigger and deeper word than I once thought of it, so bye. Till the scary promos are over.

N, 9:11 PM



we were a never.



N, 9:38 PM



-

It's freaking me out because I get so scared.

I am very very scared.

bye (&my WR is not not entirely done, soon soon!)

pullovers tmr yippeeee

N, 10:00 PM






N, 11:07 PM


This island has become
an ocean and my boat's too small
The waves are crashing in
and I cant save this sinking ship


I went to bed feeling horrible but I had reallly cool dreams! But theyre still dreams arent they. Maybe I'm just feeling the wrong vibes. I'm the only player in my own game, now maybe it's game over.

Havent seen pig in almost 3bloody days! <3

N, 1:19 PM


Today is Sunday! Finallyyyy (:

When I wake up I'll watch some reruns and meet biatch! :D

MY WR IS COMPLETED OMG. We(minus a certain member) took 10hours straight! With my occassional glutton-filled breaks and annoying pig online hehe. Yay I'm happy.

I finished all of smelly's cookies during PW time hehe and Yang Rong liked it too! See smelly you have skillss wooooo

Now I have tummyaches cause I think I ate too much ):

slgbjesvgnewrvfbewriugbibc vneribuvwiuvbsdklajfwqio4turjker nerbq[i;sv. I hate this part of the night/midnight, whatever OMMMGGGGGGGG fuck!

N, 1:26 AM



cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
baby I would tell you, everytime you leave
I'm inconsolable

x

So we finally had botakjones today, I'm a genius, superrr street(just tp, haha)smart mygoodness. hahah nic liked it better than me the fish wasnt even crispeeeeeee!

Eve, Kris somehow had this telepathic connection to both not turn up today! So irritating boooo

My openoffice finished downloading! but it's taking really long to install so annoying. I'm actually toying with the idea of sitting down on the sofa and doing the WR till I nod off, or until the batt dies hahha

The weather's being a Kristin=Biatch(HAHA) again! Seriously, that woman's so rude to me ):

out! Pw tmr ):

*Sunday Sunday!

N, 10:47 PM



& I watch them fall everytime
another color turns to grey
and its just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away --

all gentlemen, all falling from grace.

x

I now have my (mustard) yellow dress and tonnnnzzz of cookies (: and a letter. I'm sorry next time I'll get u a letter a super duper long one and we can go eat my redbean thingalings! aweshuummmmm love!

I'm such a loser, I let stupid and low people get to me

All the fucking politics in class I cant take. Suddenly they are all on a roll, and maybe this wont stop for a longlong time to come.

Maybe after tonight, I'm finally convinced.

N, 9:46 PM



-

Maybe, maybe the final straw has come. It's alot earlier than expected, but I supposed it's still a good thing. The queasy feeling is still here, guess it doesnt rub off that fast does it.

Just finished the CSE file, I have an intl hist essay left ): My hardworking library trip was not too bad! at least I have answers to all the questions in Mr Lim's brain haha.

My dress is herreeeee! and I can see smeellly toooooo. Smelly! today Jing just rushed to me in the toilet and gave me a bear hug and just started shrieking my name haha did that make you smile? hahaha

Till now, wo hen xiang ni. Too much for my own good, how? Beautiful mistake, that's what it is.

byebye &Im off to do my essay booohoooooooooo

N, 7:50 PM



this is for the strangers sleeping in my heart,
take what they want, &leave while it's still dark.

x

Facebook is seriously taking up alot of my time! haha I'm having so much fun foodfighting with smelly (:

My night has been one of the busiest of all month, maybe I'm lost too ..

Still cant wait for Sunday! (:

N, 11:15 PM



-

my hero is you says:
but i don't suppose there's anything more special than any other day

my hero is you says:
haha

this mix could burn a hole in anyone - says:
eh that line deep i need to read twice

my hero is you says:
eh of cos i veh deep one horrr

hahahahahahahahaha <3

N, 11:06 PM


just then I realised what a fool I could be,
just 'cos I looked so high I don't have to see me,
finding a paradise wasn't easy but still,
there's a road going down the other side of this hill

x

Yes I will let go subtly, so convincingly you won't have a clue.

Zeeeee most wonderful friend of 2007 is demanding for her own cozy area here but I'm simply in no mood for loveydovey poems now. SOOOOOOOOON okay (:

Cant wait for Sundayyyy! :D Kris and I are thinking realllllll hard what to get for Eve! Kris has really dumb ideas but she just cant admit it! We will play and have fun and act as if we do not face probably one of the most crucial exams in less than a months time :D

Hey Phyllis I'm freeee on Saturday already!!! Meet me I miss you (quite abit after speaking to you just now :D )

Secret's already out in DVD (!!!!!!) and I havent even watched it yet! ): suchaaaa loserrrrr x10!

Long day tmr SSP till 7 ): and its sooooo sad I have my snowskin but absolutely no moood to eat it

out!

N, 9:23 PM



People in love get special treatment
People in love get everything wrong
People in love their hearts get eaten
People in love get everything wrong -

haha the song is so cute.

Staying home was very fun! My dad is very cute hehe :D

yangrong says:
my blood circulation running at its limit

My heart's in overdrive and you're behind the steering wheel says:
HAHAH

So this is how I make him feel! Total turn on I am. HAHAH. He even named our kids! Ive proven Dawn's and Kristin's point! :D

I have snowskin mooncakes !! and zuowen still undone, hey I finished ec okay! zuowen is so blahhhhhhhh

I think the state of my eyebags soared and probably peaked when I stayed up till 3 last night so I will try to sleep soon!

p/s yikes! time is passing by so fast smelly celebrates 1 year with wallpaper boy in 2 days! I miss 2006.

out.

N, 10:40 PM


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How come nobody told me Hayden Panettiere was together with Stephen Colletti! &they were labelled long-term! Wth!



This is about her slimmest, in pictures! Im still peeved!

N, 2:25 PM


From the day rise up until the night falls down
I'm losing myself, so I can't stay around

-

Today was meeting-many-different-people-day, or something like that. I'm glad I didnt have to travel to school thought, although I did commute allllll the way to Woodlands... for CSE! :D so bloody hardworking I must say. Eve's sick! Please rmr to say your daily goodnights to Miss P. before you're down with more ailments haha.

Saw Jac with no Dirahhh ahhh! And then I had dinner with ahgong! Although he gave most of the fish with no bones to my cousin and I got stuck with all the boney crap, dinner was still great. Then some alone time with the angel from my nightmare, haha and i'm home with 3pears! They're not just pears okay.. theyre like sweet and juicy and biggggg.

Zuowen (OKOK I must promise myself to complete it!) and Ec essay! Tomorrow tomorrow

ANDAND my dress is finally here!!! my yelllow sunnny sunnny thingy. haha

bye!

N, 12:20 AM



Maybe we're trying, trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing is beating our hearts
We're empty --

Maybe I'll send a text to wrap things up, maybe when I've got enough balls.

----------------

josceline! :D says:
why can't i miss you and go to thailand? (:

&we'll be running so fast we can fly tonight says:
hahah cause IM not in thailand?

&we'll be running so fast we can fly tonight says:
ahhaha

&we'll be running so fast we can fly tonight says:
maybe when u miss me the place u shld be going is umm my house or something?

(:

N, 9:24 PM



I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect -

I'm sorry if I ever made you think that it wouldnt bother me even if you were to pull such horrible stunts for the second time on me. The things you did, they dont even hurt half as much as when I think about what actually goes through your mind before you do them. Dirah says I'm too nice, Jac says I've a big heart, thats all. Maybe they're right, maybe they're not. How to deal?

x
My zuowen is still undone, Kris already has gotten a page filled up, well I have like a few lines! :o

Today had been so tiring, I cant even imagine repeating today's eventful happenings to ballxxx and smelly. Theyld do a better job of cursing and swearing. PROMOS COME AND THEN LEAVE QUICK. ):

ooops, I also have Ec DRQ to do and my stomach is fucking painful ):

p/s I hate people doubting me, if I said I gave you the money, then I did. Okay?

N, 10:12 PM



And I can't make this click.
And I can't tattoo your mind.
But you know this ain't no trick.
Take it or leave it all behind.

x
Smelly &her smashed cupcakes! :D okok they are very yummy, moreso with the chocochips!

My zuowen is still undone, lets hope Kristin hasnt done hers yet!

Yangrong: Can you please be in charge of asking (my ct) for the size of her pullover cause it may be too sensitive for the guys to get her measurements/

Noelle: HAHAHHAHA damn funny you! okok I'll ask tmr?

Yangrong: Lol, funny then you'll like right.....


Today we welcomed the new gp tutor! Not with much open arms I reckon haha.

Dinner was good! <3 nowwwwww I shall wait for supper heeeheee

out!

N, 10:01 PM



So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
&rewrite every line
to the story of me &you

x
Staying in tp sucks, school exhausts me. IanOng didn't turn up today, pleasepleaseplease let that happen again tmr. Cant stand another powerpoint lecture ): pssst tmr lessons end at 3 :D I wanna zoooooooom home and do zuowen ): &I've got 2Ec essays to do. Bless me!

Today I ate soooo much and now I feel so sick. Once my hair dries, I will sleep, pronto! I'm so tired I just wanna stone and zone out and not bother about anything soooo

out!

p/s My GP tutor quit, or got sacked, whichever. Reading her goodbye email is making me sad!



129, we're all figs! ;)

N, 9:26 PM



x
I'm too strong to let myself get caught up in this whirlwind

Maths test was uhhhhh.. time never passed so slowly before hehe. maybe I'll get 5 and pig will get 1! How cool is that!

I wrote out my P.Exam schedule! I end on the 12th!!! sooooo there's a good one week till the big day! Pig WILL plan something, right? (:

Too many things I will not/cant say it here and I am very tired, not so much physically.

Out!

N, 9:49 PM



Whenever we try, somehow the plan
is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok.

So will I.

MathCA4 tmr = Will fail.

Nothing, absolutely nothing productive done during the holidays. Too many things still left unsettled, too much still left unsaid ):

Butttt I miss Dirah and Choong real badly so...

I washed my hair TWICE tday!

she's like a walking show-and-tell says:
ya la then we change clique?

she's like a walking show-and-tell says:
haha

evePIG! says:
haven change meh??

evePIG! says:
lol

Eve you suck!

outtttt.

N, 10:24 PM


bend my will again, then mend it straight.

Is it considered stupid to do something you know full well it's wrong? Guess it is. Well then again, not everyone's got a clear head right?

Eve I'm glad you had fun today (: obsessing over pearline and I didnt see my prettyGA ): Mon dont be late for school!

sillypok wants to find botakjones. shhh dont say anything about me knowing where is it alr. ;)

out!

N, 12:49 AM



I've been housing too many guests recently, haha.

Last night I couldnt get much sleep, &I'm very relunctant to admit I know the reason why. Call me, message me, whateverr do something please.

): you have a newfound abiity now, dear.

N, 11:48 AM



My night is ending with the weirdest twist.

N, 11:07 PM



-

My Thursday was near breakdown, how was yours?

By the time the match ended it felt like we've played through the entire game with them, idk why but my thighs were aching, prolly too much walking done in a single day. & Sg won! (: Eve has this giganormous crush on the team cap mygoodness! her sily antics just dont stop occurring. Ohhh &I saw Tay JiaZhi!! omg my disinfectant/irritant/pollutant! (:

Charmaine Yeo I so know who you were out meeting today! ;)

Then I lost my dammned wallet and have to go down to yck to collect from jamie and my mother somehow thought it was the end of the freaking world.

The game was good though! Pictures on nightmare's blog and today more stuff and information were presented to me than ever. First I experienced tremendous annoyance in school, epitomised confusion, then scandalous, then dramamama(literally) and home to more confusion.

I don't know what to do? I don't know what to do. Tell me what to do?

N, 11:50 PM



-

" And the truth is, if I hadn't met Asher, I'm sure I would have gone for Nick Cooper. But I did meet him, and I can't undo that. "

double ):

My schedule is so screwed up. Either I can't find anything to do, like today (save for homework- zuowen, chinese and gp compre, cse research topic, struggle to understand wth IanOng had been teaching in class) or I have many things piled together, like tomorrow (Econs 1 to 1-say omg!, prawning-at cck! bloody far right?, and the netball game)

First it was Nicole's, now Dawn's grandfather is in TTSH and apparently today his condition worsened ): We'll pray for him okay dear girl

I'm so hungry and theres nothing appealing at home to eat so I settled for not 1 or 2, but 4 fricking slices of bread with kaya. HA how pathetic you tell me. Can't wait for Dad to call.

I'm watching Silence all over again and it's making me cry!

out.

N, 6:24 PM



-

HAHA 129love so not that lovely so. but we still had fun amidst the rude interruption when davidljb (hahahahahahah) jumped into the pool ... harry met sally was hilarious, amilia was 7fricking books! haha very cute.

my secret movie is still under delay! please glut please!

my nail just chipped and i have absolutely no idea why it happened and i stink rather much now (shutup smellyhead) so i shall go and shower.

p/s daniel my newfound kindergarten friend you're not cheena and that fact that you have training tmr shows that you're very hardworking and please accept this heartfelt compliment. hahaha

dwarf (is smelly) is not replying me!

N, 10:41 PM



Hello my beloved ballxxx (:



9months since this photo and 25 days till you're liberated! (: B&Js dont forget <3

First day of holiday &I'm proud to announce even though yours truly didnt manage to accomplish homework of any sort, Yangrong and I confirmed for the supplier to come down tmr, I made some choco thingalings for tmr! &I madethe angelmortal namecards, got ready the playing cards and planned out games for tmr. Wet wet day tmr :D &I'm still praying! For good weather, for good turnup rate, for smooth bonding activities, for good fun. OH &for dear Dawn &Yangrong to get better (: Tomorrow shall be a blessed blessed day.

Today also the 2 women at home finally saw some good times between them. We cooked together, ate together and went downstairs to get dessert together.

I memorised the song for Pig! Tomorrow I shall sing for you don't be shy okay! hehe &I have Ec outline to do ):

I swear Dirah &I are such lazypigs. I'm only typing this extra chunk because I know we both dont wanna shower &do work respectively. HA no wonder we're friends :D

&Nicole! You stop asking your niece to call &scold me !! An eight year old calling me naughty, I cant take it lying down ! Tmr I get russell to call you smelly ah, then you know. haha

out!


N, 8:43 PM





N, 7:55 PM


-

Noelle was in a very reflective mood.

Smelly was right, it was nothing but a phase. Crying or without, I'll get through and over it.

This past week or 2 had been all but peaceful. I'm selfishly glad that for me, it ended. I may need some time but I'm positive things will work out, with or without me. If you think you're the one I'm talking about, then believe me I'm okay and you should be too alright ? (:

The holidays are here, time for getaways time for running away &time for whatever aways you might have, as long as it's away for the BIG Y(do you even go to)JC, it should work out for the better

Mom was a total spitfire before breakfast and now she's calmed down quite abit, she fed me this cup of yellow herbal thingaling which I wrongfully assumed to be the harmless chrysanthemum until I took a big gulp and well, you know what happens next.

Oh &I found the recordings of the performance pieces for Fantasia V I think. Rhapsody &all that, I miss allll of it ):

Tmr's Monday! Secret with glut I hope :D and Tuesday is all about the 129 love. I pray for a fun &a successful one.

out!

N, 12:25 PM

chijTOAPAYOH (4/9ohsix!); yjc ctg129 07


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